So, about two months ago, I interviewed for a job...not just any job, my DREAM job. It went great and they basically offered me the job on the spot. But the pay structure was a little fuzzy, it's part time, and I just needed time to talk to M about it and make sure we were in the position to make a move. So I contacted them with a salary negotiation (I was soooo nervous!), and they came back and said that they were focusing on hiring another position and they were, in essence, putting this one on the back burner. I have thought about reaching out to them, but I just have this bad feeling about it. So, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my place in this world (I know, I'm so dramatic) and my place in my family. I am not the breadwinner, but I would like to contribute more. But my job is comfortable, flexible, and I like it enough to still go in everyday and try to do my best. So, maybe this is just my place for now. But how do I shake this feeling of restlessness? I don't know, but recently I saw this: What a thing to say! I am constantly looking for the next big thing, my purpose (hence the One Little Word project), and never really satisfied with my life. While I do feel more at peace now than I have in the past, I can't help but wonder if this is it. But what if we could turn that off? Stop telling ourselves we need to do more, stress more, worry more. What if we could just be?
Right now my life is pretty calm. And I like it. But I know there is more out there. I'm going to keep looking, but I think I may take the pressure off myself for a while. I need to be present and enjoy the life that surrounds me. What about you? Is your life calm and are you ok with that? Think about it and I hope you find your peace. Until next time, Anne
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I'm Anne! Follow me as I go through life as a new mom and soon-to-be wife. Always looking for a creative outlet, I want to share all my ideas with you here at Life by Design! Archives
February 2018
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